I am really late today, I had my monthly class, actually group therapy for BPD, called STRIDES. It's for 2 hours in the afternoon on the 2nd Wednesday of the month. It helps me keep on an even keep mentally, and I've been attending this group for about 3 years. It starts with a 5 month program called STEPPES, then we move to STAIRWAYS for about 15 months, after that it's STRIDES for life maintenance. I wouldn't be alive without it, I would have been a suicide, but now I am useful and can cope with a lot of things. It's not that I am totally well mentally, that will never happen but I have learned to cope with my mental illness. Before I started STEPPES my first and last and always thoughts were how to end my life, it was with me like a dark cloud over my head, I had plans and was always looking for ways. Now I still get the thoughts, but I know how to deal with them and I can cope.

I am so excited and happy that I have sold a quilt, Tumbling Blocks, I can get some new fabric, and make a payment to Anthony on my computer, this has been really good for my self esteem and self confidence.

I am so happy it has gone to a good home, to someone who will love it the way do, I loved making it.
One of the things I love about it is that it looks different every time I look at it and from every different angle; the 3 dimensional look.

Tomorrow I have an appointment in the morning, I want to get all my errands done before the weekend, we are supposed to get slammed with snow and really gold weather and I would like to have no place to go til the roads are plowed.

I still have to get a picture of the Log Cabin quilt that I finished last and I am going to try to do that tomorrow too.

This is where I state that I am so thankful David can drive again, I really have a lot to be thankful for, also that he can do his own running up and down the stairs. Over the last 3 or 4 days my left (bad) knee has been collapsing out from under me and hurts really bad, I don't know if I injured it again or its the cold or natural degeneration, but it's making getting around hard so I am so glad David is mobile again. I can still sit at the sewing machines though, very happy thoughts there!